With another Valentine’s Day come and gone and all of my good intentions with it, I thought that I would write my next post in honor of him: my husband, my partner, and my best friend. Lately, things have gotten so busy between us, he with his new job and the extra commitments that go along with it and me with taking care of our boys, this blog and homeschooling. It’s easy with the hustle and bustle of life to forget that without him in my life none of these things would matter. It’s because of him that I’m able to do so many of the things I want to do. Yet more often than I care to admit he gets put on the back burner while I take care of everyone else first. It’s important that he knows how much I appreciate him, not just in these words but in my actions too. For now, I’ll start with this love letter to my husband.
To My Sweet Husband,
I want you to know that I see you. I see how hard you work to support our family. I see you playing with our children, making up games and reading to them when you can hardly keep your eyes open from working so late the night before.
I see you giving them art lessons, band practice and asking them to identify shapes, letters and words because you know how important homeschooling is to me. You had your doubts in the beginning but you not only consented you stepped up to help shoulder the responsibility of educating our children together.
I see you backing me up in front of the kids even when you don’t agree with my rules. You never waiver in front of them. You’ve got my back, they know it, I know it and I thank you for it.
I see you cancelling important meetings and coming home from work early when you know that I’ve had a rough day and I need your help but am too proud to ask for it.
I see you supporting me and encouraging me to follow my dreams. You frequently recognize how difficult being a stay at home mom is and appreciate how much I do in the day. You never make me feel guilty for needing a break or taking time for myself.
I see you when you are angry and want to fight but instead apologize for your part in the argument. Your strength and maturity at these times truly astonishes me and makes me want to be the bigger and better person too.
I see you watching me with a twinkle in your eye while I walk around the house in my over-sized bathrobe. I look in the mirror trying to see what it is you see. You make me feel attractive on my most unattractive days.
I see the tension in your face and shoulders when you’re going through the bills yet you never hesitate to give me money for groceries, to sign the kids up for another class or to get my hair done. I can only imagine the amount of stress that you are under supporting a family of four on one salary. Yet, I see you leaving work early, leaving meetings early because I’ve needed you. I know I’m your priority and that I can count on you.
I saw you wake in the middle of the night when I was pregnant and couldn’t sleep. You would read out loud to me until I fell back to sleep. That is such an incredibly sensitive and loving thing to do. It’s during those times that I realized the depths of your commitment and how much you’re willing to sacrifice for me.
During our darkest hour when life became overwhelming and I wanted to quit this marriage, quit us, you continued to hold me together, loving me through it until I got the help that I needed. When the dark clouds of depression lifted I was and will always be grateful that you were still here, holding our family together.
I see the things you sacrifice for me on a daily basis in order to take care of us and to make me happy. I see you and even though I don’t say it or show it as often as I should, I see the way you love me and it’s beautiful. Thank you for seeing me.
I love you with my best heart.
Always and forever,